Of Course You Don't Die

Nobody dies. Death doesn't exist. You only reach a new level of vision, a new realm of consciousness, a new unknown world. (Henry Miller)

The existence of higher beings

by me on Thursday, July 12, 2007 at 5:28pm (facebook note)

Just under two and a half weeks ago I was up in Sauble walking along the beach and talking with Katie. Religion got brought up and I mentioned how I do not believe in religion or in higher beings; meanwhile, Katie was saying how she does not believe in religion but does believe in a higher being. Ever since I've been playing around with this idea in my head and this is what I've come up with.

I still do not believe in religion, or in higher beings but I do now believe that they exist and I do realize how contradictory that sounds. Keep in mind that the following are my opinions and my beliefs and not meant as any sort of attack on those of you that do believe. So, if you want to comment on them by all means do so but please keep it respectful.

The reason why I do not believe in a higher being stems from the theory that "God" did not create man, but man created "God." This was brought about by looking at all the different beliefs of either a single higher being or multiple ones and coming to a conclusion that the main purpose for a higher being is to explain the unknown. If you look at all the different mythologies such as the Greek, Roman, Egyptian, Norse, Mayan, etc...there are many gods each having a different purpose to help explain the naturally occurring things in the world. Example, Zues and his lightning bolts. Over time the human races' understanding of the world has grown and obviously the need for the multiple higher beings is gone. The biggest unknowns in the world how did we come to be and what happens when we die. Which is the fundamental basis behind the single higher being faiths. So humankind came up with these beings to give explanation for what all happens in life and in the world giving me the conclusion that "God" did not create man, but man created "God."

While I was thinking about this, the old question about if a tree falls in forest and no one is around does it make a sound came into my head. The answer to this question is no, scientifically speaking when the tree falls and hits the ground it does not create sound but sends waves or vibrations through the air, ground and any other medium. It is only converted into sound when these vibrations are picked up by our ears, turned into an electrical signal and then interpreted in our minds to what we know of as sound. Therefore, unless there is somebody around sound cannot exist. What this has to do with whether or not higher being exists is this...sound only exists because it is the creation of our minds, which is not unlike people's beliefs in a higher being. Higher beings were originally a creation of the mind to explain the unexplainable, and it is the fact that as long as there are people who believe in them they will exist, just like if there is somebody around to hear it, sound exists. Just like if there is nobody around to hear the sound then it cannot exist and if nobody believed in a higher being they would not exist either.

Even though because of my beliefs tell me that they do not exist, I have to acknowledge the fact that they do exist because of all the people in the world who believe in them.

Now obviously this is was an old note that I wrote and posted on Facebook, which is sort of a preface for my following blog post.

The Afterlife.

Now I realize that for a person who does not believe in god or even in religion that I would not believe that there would be an afterlife either. Even though that is a logical conclusion it is not the case for me anyway. It is said that there are three parts to a person, the mind, the body, and the soul. Each playing an important part to a person's life. For obvious reasons the "body" part is strictly restrained to the a person being alive. The "mind" is the embodiment of the person's intelligence, whereas, the "soul" is that of the person's emotions/feelings or character (or even the lack thereof in certain cases).

These last two aspects are what I believe pertain to a person's transformation from life to the afterlife. A person's intelligence is linked with the person's brain and all it is essentially just electrical signals firing between the various neurons. It is energy, it can be measured using an electrocardiography test (more commonly known as an ECG or EKG). Now for the "soul" it is still a bit of a mystery to what it actually is exactly; however, there are those who say that a person's "chi" or "aurora" which is basically the same as the person's soul is just that person's energy. Again a form of energy. So they are both forms of energy, big deal right? Wrong! Here is a little bit of science for you.

The first law of Thermodynamics, also known as the law of conservation of energy, states that: energy cannot be created of destroyed, it can only be converted from one form to another. What that means is that the total amount of energy that is in the universe is constant. In the case of a person's death, this is saying that the energy from the person's "mind", "body" and "soul" are being transferred back into the world around us. For the "body", it will slowly decompose or cremated transferring the energy that it holds within itself back into the world. On the other hand, the energy of the "mind" and the "soul" will start to transfer back when the body is starting to shut down. For a slower more natural death the energies are just released back with no paranormal effects. It is my belief that there are cases in which either the "mind" or the "soul" are strongly tied to strong spiritual beliefs, some sort of traumatic effect, or even through emotional attachment to a person, object, or location.

Religion is everywhere you look and in all sorts of various forms. Everybody will develop their own beliefs that stem from their religious backgrounds about what will happen to them when they die, and what happens in the afterlife. Whether it be heaven, hell, reincarnation, nothing at all, etc... In my opinion this is the first tier of what actually happens to us when we pass on because whether we believe in a religious belief or not our minds will inevitably fall upon what we truly believe as we fade into death. So as we fade our energies will be transferred into those beliefs and manifest themselves as such, whether that take the individual person to heaven, or hell, or to those who do not believe in an afterlife to nothing at all.

Trauma has quite the effect on people. Causing them to reflect on themselves and how their life has been up until that point and in instances where a person is in extreme trauma this reflection is even higher. As this occurs it stirs up all sorts of emotions, and feelings that ties the person to the traumatic event. Again this fits in with the theory that a person's energies can transfer onto the next life and if this attachment has a strong enough emotional connection, which is the result of chemical reactions, it can last for the rest of their physical life and onto the next.

That sort of emotional attachment can be from a negative aspect, for example, being murdered or suffering excruciating pain or through more positive feelings, such as, love. Where traumatic attachment usually deals with more negative feelings, strong emotional attachments to a person or object are generally from the positive aspect. For example, a parents or relatives who love a son or child enough to develop a emotional bond with them would be able to keep have that bond tie them to that person as they pass on from the physical world. Love is a powerful thing, even in the afterlife.

Regardless of what the person believes in, or how strong their emotional attachments are to a particular event, person, or even object, they can all come down to an assortment of chemical reactions that go on inside of our body. It is about as possible as any other theory out there that those energies can be transferred into another state of being. Maybe it is true, and maybe it is not, but those are my thoughts on the matter.

Profile of a Sociopath

Glibness/Superficial Charm
Language can be used without effort by them to confuse and convince their audience. Captivating storytellers that exude self-confidence, they can spin a web that intrigues others. Since they are persuasive, they have the capacity to destroy their critics verbally or emotionally.

Manipulative and Cunning
They never recognize the rights of others and see their self-serving behaviors permissible. They appear to be charming, yet are covertly hostile and domineering, seeing their victim as merely an instrument to be used. They dominate and humiliate their victims.

Grandiose Sense of Self
Feels entitled to certain things as "their right." Craves adulation and attendance. Must be the center of attention with their own fantasies as the "spokesman for God," "enlightened," "leader of humankind," etc. Creates an us-versus-them mentality

Pathological Lying
Has no problem lying coolly and easily and it is almost impossible for them to be truthful on a consistent basis. Can create, and get caught up in, a complex belief about their own powers and abilities. Extremely convincing and able to pass lie detector tests.

Lack of Remorse, Shame or Guilt
A deep seated rage, which is split off and repressed, is at their core. Does not see others around them as people, but only as targets and opportunities. Instead of friends, they have victims and accomplices who end up as victims. The end always justifies the means and they let nothing stand in their way.

Shallow Emotions
When they show what seems to be warmth, joy, love and compassion, it is more feigned than experienced and serves an ulterior motive. Outraged by insignificant matters, yet remaining unmoved and cold by what would upset a normal person. Since they are not genuine, neither are their promises.

Incapacity for Love
While they talk about "God's love" they are unable to give or receive it. Since they do not believe in the genuineness of their followers' love, they are very harsh in testing it from their devotees and expect them to feel guilt for their failings. Expects unconditional surrender.

Need for Stimulation
Living on the edge, yet testing the beliefs of their followers with bizarre rules, punishments and behaviors. Verbal outbursts and physical punishments are normal.

Callousness/Lack of Empathy
Unable to empathize with the pain of their victims, having only contempt for others' feelings of distress and readily taking advantage of them. Their skills are used to exploit, abuse and exert power. Since the follower cannot believe their leader would callously hurt them, they rationalize the behavior as necessary for their (or the group's) own "good" and deny the abuse. When devotees become aware of the exploitation it feels like a "spiritual rape" to them.

Poor Behavioral Controls/Impulsive Nature
Rage and abuse, alternating with small expressions of love and approval produce an addictive cycle for abuser and abused, as well as creating hopelessness in the victim. Believe they are all-powerful, all-knowing, entitled to every wish, no sense of personal boundaries, no concern for their impact on others. The followers only see them as near perfect.

Early Behavior Problems/Juvenile Delinquency
Usually has a history of behavioral and academic difficulties, yet "gets by" by conning others. Problems in making and keeping friends; aberrant behaviors such as cruelty to people or animals, stealing, etc.

Irresponsibility/Unreliability
Not concerned about wrecking others' lives and dreams. Oblivious or indifferent to the devastation they cause. Does not accept blame themselves, but blame their followers or others outside their group. Blame reinforces passivity and obedience and produces guilt, shame, terror and conformity in the followers.

Promiscuous Sexual Behavior/Infidelity
Totalitarian leaders frequently practice promiscuity, child sexual abuse, rape and sexual acting out of all sorts. This is usually kept hidden from all but the inner circle. Stringent sexual control of their followers, such as forced breakups and divorces, removal of children from parents, rules for dating, etc.

Lack of Realistic Life Plan/Parasitic Lifestyle
Tends to move around a lot or makes all encompassing promises for the future. Many groups claim as their goal world-domination or other utopian promises. Great contrast between the leader's opulent lifestyle and the followers' impoverishment. Support by gifts and donations from the followers who are pressured to give through fear and guilt. Highly sensitive to their own pain and health.

Criminal or Entrepreneurial Versatility
Changes their image and that of the group as needed to avoid prosecution and to increase income and to recruit a range of members. Is able to adapt or relocate as needed to preserve the group. Can resurface later with a new name, a new front group and a new twist on the scam

This Is For All The Bitches, Hos And Tricks

...I wouldn't talk to any of you, if I didn't have a dick (Tucker Max)


The first time that I came across the writings of Tucker Max was approximately 5 years ago when I was sent the link to his website, www.tuckermax.com, and began reading his stories. The more I read the more I came enchanted. He is a self proclaimed asshole who only thinks of himself and his only personal gratification and yet I could not get enough of the stories he posted online. I read through as quickly as I possibly could and I honestly wished I could be more like him. Granted back then I was a socially stunted loser that did not have much of a life, so it was not hard to imagine that grasping onto his exploits and aspiring towards them were not all that implausible.

At that point in time he had been working on his first book entitled "I Hope The Serve Beer In Hell" which later came out a month or so after I was introduced to his site, even later for it to come out in Canada. I never did get around to purchasing the book back then and I eventually lost interest in the site completely. Somehow I managed to create a bit of a life for myself, quite the miracle actually. This past week however, I was in Chapters and decided to buy a copy of his first book and began reading all the stories that are in it (not all are posted on his website). The stories range from him insulting all sorts of different types of people, mocking them until the point that therapy may never be able to repair the damage inflicted, and hooking up with girls in all sorts of different situations that sometimes end up in some disgusting scene.

Obviously this is the sort of thing that caught quickly especially within the teen or college community, not any different than that of the "Jackass" movies. Guys all over the country wanted to be like him, and tons of girls wanted to be used by him. If you are into low humor all of the stories are hilarious, but what I find is the funniest is that despite all of his debauchery there is a hidden moral behind it all. Tucker is a guy who just is who he is without caring about the consequences of his actions and that is something everybody should take from, even those that are prey to a person like him.

We are dominated by societal and media based forces that tell as that we should conform to certain standards to fit in and act a specific manner. That we should just play our part in life that is least likely to cause disruption to the social norms. So many people are worried about how others perceive them that they cannot just be who they really are, when they should stop caring about what everybody else thinks of them. I will admit that I have had my own Tucker Max moments, few people know of those stories, ultimately though what I take away from his stories is that you should just stop caring about how others perceive you and be who you truly are and do what you want in life. It is as simple as that.


Side note: For any of those interested, he does have a second book out entitled "Assholes Finish First"

Tomorrow, And Tomorrow, And Tomorrow

Creeps in this petty pace from day to day (William Shakespeare)


It has been almost a month since my last post and I figured it was time that I should stop putting off writing something.

Unfortunately for the past while my insomnia has been increasingly getting worse and worse and on the scale of enjoyability it rates quite low.

Like always, my time has been mostly spent in my room huddled in front of my monitors though even that did not go smoothly this past month. For some unforeseen reasons my computer decided to, well to put it bluntly, fuck up. I was not pleased at this discovery. Luckily enough I was sufficiently able to back up everything that I wanted to keep before I had to format my hard drive and reinstall windows. My rating for this is low to moderate.

A notable highlight of the month was the date that I went on a date with a very lovely woman. It was very enjoyable with the highest rating, obviously.

Another noteworthy event has been "The Walking Dead" on AMC, as well as the graphic novel series that the show is being adapted from. A couple weeks before hearing about the show I had purchased the first volume in the hard cover series and was impressed with what I read. So upon hearing about the show and having it finally clue in that it was based off the graphic novel that I had bought I could not wait to check out the show. The show does not follow the story to the letter from the books but it does definitely keep the feel which I think is more important. I have since bought the second volume in the series and look forward to the others as well as more shows from the series. The enjoyment rating for this is at a mid-high level.


This brief catalog of events has been brought to in part by me.