Friday, December 24, 2010

He Who Has Not Christmas In His Heart

...will never find it under a tree. (Roy L. Smith)

Twas the night before Christmas, and all through my head,
Where thoughts upon thoughts of things that have been said;
Images are racing along like cars on the road,
The darkest of secrets are an unbearable load;
It's supposed to be a time of happiness and joy,
Sadly it's not for this particular boy;
So upon my face will sit a fake smile and grin,
Pretending to enjoy the company that I'm in;
Counting down the minutes until the end of my blight,
While wishing a Merry Christmas to all, and to all a good night.

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Memory Is Deceptive

...because it is colored by today's events. (Albert Einstein)


Oh what a day it was today.

My sleeping has been entirely messed up as of late, so as I woke up at about 8pm last night I decided that I might as well just try and stay up all day today and go to bed early to try and fix my dilemma. All was going well as it started off and was able to talk with a friend who's a quarter of the world away from here, which is not something that I get to do too often. At one point I had come back into my room leaving the door open and laying on my bed reading when my roommate's dog decided to join me. Instead of laying down after she hoped up on my bed she sat there for a moment and then decided to kick out her front legs and fall down, but as she fell down on the bed her one paw got me right in the eye. Never thought I would ever get punched by a dog, I guess there is a first time for everything. After businesses started to open up I decided I needed to go out into the city and get somethings done. One of which was get a new debit card seeing as I got a message from my bank saying that some place I used it at was now being investigated and my card may now be compromised. So I went to the nearest branch and got a temporary card. Then I headed off to St. Laurent shopping center to go get a new bus pass for December. I walked around the mall for a bit afterwords getting idea for Christmas presents for people. I got a few ideas but wanted to go check out some other places so I hoped on a bus and then transferred to another one to go to Billings Bridge which would have taken less then ten minutes to reach but I manged to doze off anyway. So I ended up on my way to Kanata, after staying on the bus an extra forty minutes, when I finally realized my predicament and got off quickly only to catch another bus back. I decided at that point that I should just head home so after I caught the bus I cranked my iPod so I would not fall back asleep again. On this leg of my journey today, we stopped at one of the bus stops along the way and this guy comes on rocking a full on mullet and I chuckled to myself, then as he moved towards wear I was sitting and people ahead of him got out of the way I noticed that he was wearing a fanny pack. I wanted to just point and laugh but I really did not have the energy for it at that point. A little while later I managed to get off at a connection to the O-train and upon getting on said O-train I got on to be asked for my proof of payment for riding by a rather cute female transit authority officer. Of course I was just barely awake, holding onto a bottle of pop which made me bumble around to get my bus pass open for her to see so I felt rather foolish at that. I get off the O-train at my stop and as it is pouring down rain, I start to walk to Loblaws since I have zero actual food at home and I figured it would be a good idea to pick up something a little more healthy to eat. Of course this makes me think of the places where I have used my debit card recently and I came to the conclusion that the only places I had used it in the past month is either Loblaws or Walmart so either one of them would have to be the place that is under investigation. Always good to know that places so big are being hit by scammers. Anyway though I finally made it back home and collapsed onto my bed where I fell asleep rather quickly at about 3:30pm. Woke up about 3 hours ago and here I am writing this up.