Conjunction Junction

What's your function?

I want pie...


I am actually hesitant to write what I'm about to write; however, I feel that it is for the best.

The reason why I am hesitant to write this is because it has to deal with some not so pleasant things I have learned about my new girlfriend. Even though I have been honest with her and that I do not see her any differently than I have before, I am still feeling down about everything. Which has got me thinking. My conscious and sub-conscious minds are against each other. I think that is why I am still down and not feeling bad. Consciously I can accept that everything about her past is in the past, and that everything that has happened in her past has shaped her into the person that she currently is today. Unfortunately, my sub-conscious is completely out of my control. So sub-consciously I believe, since I cannot know with any amount of certainty, I might in fact be troubled by the things that I have learned. I do not want to just come right out and worry my girlfriend about this because I am hoping that by getting it off my chest on here it will help clear my sub-conscious of any negative thoughts pertaining to her. Though she does know about this blog of mine and if she does end up reading this I am sure you'll ask me about it. I just hope that she will see that I am not unwilling to let her know about this and that I am just trying to get this out of my system in my own way.

Further more, when she does read this...I want you to know that I do actually want to know everything about you and your past so that I am able to have the deep understanding of who you are and feel that closeness a person gets when there are no secrets, no walls, no nothing between two people. I will though never ask you about any of it because I do respect your privacy, I just hope that in time you'll see that no matter what I learn I will not be scared away.



Mmm peach pie.


On a related side note, I now believe that my over-active mind stems from my sub-conscious mind. I can feel my mind racing over all sorts of information and details but when I try to see what is going on, I can only pick out fragmented details. If that were my conscious mind then I would not have any problems with seeing what is going on in my head, but seeing as I cannot I now think that my sub-conscious mind is just as active while I am awake as much as it is while I am sleeping.

Go, Go, Gadget

...Copter!!

I want to fly.
High in the sky.
Leave this place.
And put on a new face.
High in the sky.
I want to fly.

Pop, Pop, Fizz Fizz

Oh what a relief it is.

I personally like to know as much as possible about the unknown. That way if on the off chance something were to happen the blame would all be on me because I made the conscious decision to go after something knowing full well what the consequences might be. If life is a dark tunnel, give me a flashlight so I can meet the dangers head on.