One year, six months and twenty-seven days ago I made my last post...
I know, I know, I am completely horrible at this whole blogging thing. I fail epically. Please forgive me in this short-coming, pretty please?
I will be honest with you now though, I have nothing really to say the moment. Not that there has not been anything worthy to post in the past year and a half but just because I am quite tired and very sore so I will just leave you with the knowledge that I have not forgot about this and I will try to be a better blogger for you all.
"Our greatest happiness does not depend on the condition of life in which chance has placed us, but is always the result of a good conscience, good health, occupation, and freedom in all just pursuits." - Thomas Jefferson
Monday, May 3, 2010
Thursday, October 9, 2008
Omnia Vincit Amor
Amor animi arbitrio sumitur, non ponitur.
The heart was open
The heart was full
You came along
You gave a mighty pull
Tore it from my chest
And let it fall
You walked away slowly
Leaving me with nothing at all
I pick up what's left
And as time passes by
I pretend to care
And live a lie
The heart is empty
The heart is closed
The heart was open
The heart was full
You came along
You gave a mighty pull
Tore it from my chest
And let it fall
You walked away slowly
Leaving me with nothing at all
I pick up what's left
And as time passes by
I pretend to care
And live a lie
The heart is empty
The heart is closed
Thursday, October 2, 2008
Where's The Beef?
Drama, drama, drama, drama, drama
The world is so full of drama, you would think of a few thousand years of civilization that we humans would be able to overcome all of it... sadly though, we are not able to. It would also appear that we will never shake the ever so frustrating dramatic woe that carries on day after day.
The world is so full of drama, you would think of a few thousand years of civilization that we humans would be able to overcome all of it... sadly though, we are not able to. It would also appear that we will never shake the ever so frustrating dramatic woe that carries on day after day.
Monday, September 8, 2008
Conjunction Junction
What's your function?
I want pie...
I am actually hesitant to write what I'm about to write; however, I feel that it is for the best.
The reason why I am hesitant to write this is because it has to deal with some not so pleasant things I have learned about my new girlfriend. Even though I have been honest with her and that I do not see her any differently than I have before, I am still feeling down about everything. Which has got me thinking. My conscious and sub-conscious minds are against each other. I think that is why I am still down and not feeling bad. Consciously I can accept that everything about her past is in the past, and that everything that has happened in her past has shaped her into the person that she currently is today. Unfortunately, my sub-conscious is completely out of my control. So sub-consciously I believe, since I cannot know with any amount of certainty, I might in fact be troubled by the things that I have learned. I do not want to just come right out and worry my girlfriend about this because I am hoping that by getting it off my chest on here it will help clear my sub-conscious of any negative thoughts pertaining to her. Though she does know about this blog of mine and if she does end up reading this I am sure you'll ask me about it. I just hope that she will see that I am not unwilling to let her know about this and that I am just trying to get this out of my system in my own way.
Further more, when she does read this...I want you to know that I do actually want to know everything about you and your past so that I am able to have the deep understanding of who you are and feel that closeness a person gets when there are no secrets, no walls, no nothing between two people. I will though never ask you about any of it because I do respect your privacy, I just hope that in time you'll see that no matter what I learn I will not be scared away.
Mmm peach pie.
On a related side note, I now believe that my over-active mind stems from my sub-conscious mind. I can feel my mind racing over all sorts of information and details but when I try to see what is going on, I can only pick out fragmented details. If that were my conscious mind then I would not have any problems with seeing what is going on in my head, but seeing as I cannot I now think that my sub-conscious mind is just as active while I am awake as much as it is while I am sleeping.
I want pie...
I am actually hesitant to write what I'm about to write; however, I feel that it is for the best.
The reason why I am hesitant to write this is because it has to deal with some not so pleasant things I have learned about my new girlfriend. Even though I have been honest with her and that I do not see her any differently than I have before, I am still feeling down about everything. Which has got me thinking. My conscious and sub-conscious minds are against each other. I think that is why I am still down and not feeling bad. Consciously I can accept that everything about her past is in the past, and that everything that has happened in her past has shaped her into the person that she currently is today. Unfortunately, my sub-conscious is completely out of my control. So sub-consciously I believe, since I cannot know with any amount of certainty, I might in fact be troubled by the things that I have learned. I do not want to just come right out and worry my girlfriend about this because I am hoping that by getting it off my chest on here it will help clear my sub-conscious of any negative thoughts pertaining to her. Though she does know about this blog of mine and if she does end up reading this I am sure you'll ask me about it. I just hope that she will see that I am not unwilling to let her know about this and that I am just trying to get this out of my system in my own way.
Further more, when she does read this...I want you to know that I do actually want to know everything about you and your past so that I am able to have the deep understanding of who you are and feel that closeness a person gets when there are no secrets, no walls, no nothing between two people. I will though never ask you about any of it because I do respect your privacy, I just hope that in time you'll see that no matter what I learn I will not be scared away.
Mmm peach pie.
On a related side note, I now believe that my over-active mind stems from my sub-conscious mind. I can feel my mind racing over all sorts of information and details but when I try to see what is going on, I can only pick out fragmented details. If that were my conscious mind then I would not have any problems with seeing what is going on in my head, but seeing as I cannot I now think that my sub-conscious mind is just as active while I am awake as much as it is while I am sleeping.
Go, Go, Gadget
...Copter!!
I want to fly.
High in the sky.
Leave this place.
And put on a new face.
High in the sky.
I want to fly.
I want to fly.
High in the sky.
Leave this place.
And put on a new face.
High in the sky.
I want to fly.
Thursday, September 4, 2008
Pop, Pop, Fizz Fizz
Oh what a relief it is.
I personally like to know as much as possible about the unknown. That way if on the off chance something were to happen the blame would all be on me because I made the conscious decision to go after something knowing full well what the consequences might be. If life is a dark tunnel, give me a flashlight so I can meet the dangers head on.
I personally like to know as much as possible about the unknown. That way if on the off chance something were to happen the blame would all be on me because I made the conscious decision to go after something knowing full well what the consequences might be. If life is a dark tunnel, give me a flashlight so I can meet the dangers head on.
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
Take Me Out To The Ball Game
Take me out to the crowd.
Buy me some peanuts and some Cracker Jacks.
I don't care if I ever come back.
For it's root, root, root for the home team.
If they don't win it's a shame.
For it's one, two, three strikes you're out.
At the ole ball game.
So it is that oh so magical time of the year that celebrates my forth coming unto this world.
The day that will now forever be a reflection back upon myself and my life, making me feel such emptiness at how people don't take notice of me. The loneliness of not having anybody around that cares. The sadness of feeling so alone. The depression that sets in from being so sad.
To mark this annual tradition, this year I get to go out and coach some baseball. No drunkenness at a bar or party, no sexual contact with anybody, just hopefully leading my team to a victory and then coming home like a pathetic person to wallow in my own self pity.
Happy Birthday to me.
Buy me some peanuts and some Cracker Jacks.
I don't care if I ever come back.
For it's root, root, root for the home team.
If they don't win it's a shame.
For it's one, two, three strikes you're out.
At the ole ball game.
So it is that oh so magical time of the year that celebrates my forth coming unto this world.
The day that will now forever be a reflection back upon myself and my life, making me feel such emptiness at how people don't take notice of me. The loneliness of not having anybody around that cares. The sadness of feeling so alone. The depression that sets in from being so sad.
To mark this annual tradition, this year I get to go out and coach some baseball. No drunkenness at a bar or party, no sexual contact with anybody, just hopefully leading my team to a victory and then coming home like a pathetic person to wallow in my own self pity.
Happy Birthday to me.
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